While writing, working at your job, going to school, or interacting with others there are many things that can make your life more difficult. Disliking the activity, people you don’t get along with, and disinterest are just a few. I would argue that the most powerful one you face is disinterest.
When you’re disinterested it causes the worst responses possible. Apathy is the opposite of love, and as such it works to remove your desire to have any connection to the activity at hand. This couples into depression as well. I, like many other people, have mistaken depression to be a feeling of inescapable sadness. Depression isn’t always sad however, more often it is more like a lack of caring.
Not caring about something, or being disinterested, makes it exceedingly difficult to do anything. Depression is the ultimate expression of this phenomenon. Why do we have apathy then? There is a good reason for it though.
Apathy is a defense mechanism, a shield. It is hard for something to hurt you if you don’t care about it. This has great power over your emotions, actions, and interactions. As such when left out of check, it can ruin your relationships, or worse lead into a depression spiral. Getting out of this situation is easiest when you haven’t let it have control of too many parts of your life.
To conquer disinterest you must let things feel again. Your happiness doesn’t work without something sad to compare it to. To feel love you must be exposed to pain. It isn’t fun, but you must not let apathy control you. When it runs your life it only leads to depression, when you take control back you feel again and it won’t likely be pleasant. Don’t give up though, lean on your friends, family, or seek professional help. The best thing you can do is seek Jesus and a relationship with him if you haven’t already. God knows how powerful your emotions are, and will help you though the hard times when you lean on him. He doesn’t promise an easy life, but does promise you will never be alone. You can find more information on that at places like hope.org, or reach out to me or any number of Christians out there. Our purpose isn’t to judge, or ridicule, but to offer help to this broken world (remember we all are broken too).
Until next time, my God bless you and keep you.